Louis,
It's the BIG day!! If you are reading this, I must have just been wheeled back to the operating room. I wanted you to have a little something to do for the hour or so I am going to be gone. I wanted you to know how much I love you.
I can't believe how fast it came. It seems like just yesterday we were out in the garage and you dropped the bomb of your idea for my birthday present. You told me you had a good idea of what you wanted to get me and it was something I wanted so bad. You said my 30th birthday was a big one and that I deserve something big for it, and then you told me you were going to get me a boob job for my birthday! I was so, so, so excited. I have wanted one since I was about 12, and knew, that due to my physical size, developing much past the stage of a twelve year old boy, was probably not going to happen. I never worried about it too much because you never worried or wanted it differently, but as soon as you told me you were going to do it for me, I was ecstatic!
It has now been six months since we started this journey, and now, in less than an hour, it is going to be done. The healing process started and moving forward to a point our lives that this will be just a memory. We will talk about 'before the surgery' and 'after the surgery' like it is a major classifying event, which, I guess, it really is. I appreciate how much it will change my body, but also, how much it will change your appreciation of my body. It is permenantely altering MY body. The only one I was given, and the one you fell in love with. It will forever change the way you hold me, the way I feel against you, and the way we embrace each other. It is a change we are going through together.
I love you and appreciate what you are doing for me. I know it is a selfless act, done to give me what I have always wanted. A special present for a milestone birthday. An expensive present may I add, but you have never been one to put a price tag on my happiness. I never thought I would be with someone who loved me enough to do something like this for me. I'm not saying that in order to show someone you love them you have to buy them something huge or extravagant or anything at all. The point I'm trying to make is that you love me enough to put aside your wants to give me something I want, or to make me happy. It blows my mind. I will forever do anything I can to put a smile on your face or to hear you laughing.
I love you so much, forever. I can't wait to be out and coherent and to get to go home and snuggle up with you today as I get through the recovery period. I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that you will take such good care of me. You are my favorite and my one and only for the rest of my life.
Forever your love,
Meagan
